It has been 387 long days since my last post on this blog. The last year has been trying to say the very least. A majority of it had been fighting the battle of a bad back which ultimately consumed my life in every way. It is really true what the old cliche says….. if you don’t have your health, you don’t have anything. For a while there, it seemed as if I had very little. Combining this with a personal tragedy, surgery and the subsequent recovery….. the road to this returning photo was a long and bumpy one. This morning however, was like my own personal nirvana. I was back out for the first time…. joining Dusty and Mitchster like so many days gone by. As close as last night I was not sure it was going to happen. Dealing with another difficult day of recovery from the procedure, the idea of being out today as little as 12 hours ago seemed almost foolish.
The reality is, I needed this. I needed to be out. I needed to see the world through my lens. I needed to see the photos again in my eye….. before the camera was used to capture the image. I needed to feel that passion again.
We stayed in a very small area. I was sore when it was done…. but for the first time in over a year I felt ‘normal’. Each sound of the shutter clicking gave me more peace. I thought it would take a while to get my vision back. Truth is, it never left….. it was just patiently waiting for opportunity to return.
This was the 7th or 8th photo I captured. I knew when it came into view on my screen that this was the therapy I missed. This would be the thing that would help return me to peace and normalcy.
Thank you Rob and Mitch for bringing me back out. Today was a much bigger day than you’ll know.
This photo is dedicated to the memory of
Brent Alwin
April 27, 1967 – May 13, 2012
One of my longest and best friends. Your loss will be forever grieved. Your place will be forever appreciated.
and who’s art and encouragement, inspired me to explore mine.
by danjay
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